Tuesday, August 19, 2008


i just have to tell everyone that i felt so happy last Sunday. not because of any anybody or any material stuff but because i felt His love again. i know, He never did stop loving anyone of us but sometimes it's just up to us if we let Him in our hearts or not.

He really does things at the right time. just when i decided to live a not-so-Christian life, He really made a way to tell me NO.
it was like He was calling me. i made up my mind not to attend mass that day and have a long day of rest. but 3 of my friends invited me to their church. separately. hehe. so i really felt like i have to go with one of them. uninterestedly, i went with one because we really had talked about going out and eating. on the way, i found myself in a jeep listening to a preacher. she was talking about God's love for us. i was just so amazed that she did that for God even if only two of all the passengers are listening..even if some think she's out of her mind..even if others weren't so polite and didn't know the word respect.she gave all her effort just to let us understand the reading. i asked myself "You're a Christian. right? Why can't you be like her?".. i felt ashamed of myself.

see? i received 4 signs that He really wants me back. but still, i wasn't that convinced[and i call myself a Christian?! tisk tisk].

we didn't attend a Catholic mass. she brought me to a fellowship. i saw all the instruments and the stage, and all the cool stuff.. ooohh.. and 'ooopps! stop right there girl. you are not gonna buy that again. you've been in this scenario before. remember? being a worshipful dummy?' i was so scared that i might want to join them just because i enjoyed and not because of the true meaning of worship. but the 'mass'(i don't know how they call it) went really well. in fact, it was so well that i'm thinking of being converted. yes, i enjoyed. i enjoyed because i really felt His presence. i enjoyed because i think, it's what he wants for me. i enjoyed because i can clearly understand the preaching of their pastor and can really relate to it. i want to go there every Sunday. i want to learn more about their church before i get converted.

"For God so loved the world that he gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life."
-john 3:16

--of all the verses in the bible, this is the only one in my memory. this verse keeps me going. and this verse makes me want to read all the other verses.=]

before i end this post, i just wanna leave you this short message: If only we let Him in our hearts, He will never ever go out. =]

God Bless c:

The Heart Of Worship - XTREME WORSHIP

Thursday, August 14, 2008

worshipful dummies..

i've thought of writing this post a long time ago, back then when i attended a fellowship. i just didn't have the time. .to clear things up, it's not within my intentions to offend people.. it's just that sometimes i, too, follow along this wrong track.. sometimes, i tend to just believe in what is convenient for me to believe. sometimes we really forget about the real meaning of worship.
often times when i attend fellowships or church meetings, i see people singing songs of praise with all their efforts looking like they really mean what they're saying. they even clap their hands and sway their bodies with the worship songs like they are really devoted to it.. and the only thing missing in the scene is a halo for everyone!.. some kneel. some even cry as if they realize their mistakes and are ready to surrender their lives to Him. and believe me, they are convincing.. when i was new in this business, i'm always left teary-eyed because of amazement to these people. teary-eyed trying to ask myself 'why can't i be like them?'why can't i do this and that..
now, after having my fair share of it, i'm still left with a question. but a different one: "what's worship after all?? "

i call them worship dummies. well, actually, sometimes i tend to become one of them.. they are the people i've mentioned above, whom at times, look like very religious people almost waiting to be canonized by the pope!some even criticize others who do not go to church that often..but you know what?i was very disappointed when i saw the real them out of their churches.without their religious masks. it seems they don't apply the meaning of their songs on daily basis. some act worse than those who do not attend mass that often. it really hurts to see those people who i used to admire going around messing up with their saint-like images.. boo-hoo.

there are so many forms of worship other than singing. i'm not saying we must stop doing it. what i'm saying is, before singing with those matching tears then raising your hand or other actions, or doing even any form of worship, think first. do you really know the meaning of what you are doing? do you really mean it?do you really offer it to God??.. coz if you're just going to church to see someone,,if you switch religion just because it's fun being in their group,, if you're just singing the worship songs because you like the melody,,or just to impress people,,--- then you're just a jerk wasting your time messing up with the image of godly people. worst is, you're an ass using God's name for your sake. you're worshipping the song dude. you're worshipping the enjoyment you'll experience. not Him. i've had my fair share of being one of you. now i've realized. i'm not that faithful at all. well at least i don't put His name in vain.. at least i don't worship musical pieces. at least i don't worship people..

i think there's nothing wrong in these forms of worship. i salute to all those pastors and fellowship groups. the wrong thing is the people who contaminate them.

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Filipino deeds revealed in jeepneys..

my only way of transporting back and forth my school and our house is the very famous jeepneys here in the Philippines. first, because it's way cheaper than any other rides, second, they come with free hair blower(haha) and last but definitely not the least, i have no choice!=]

-The Pinoy Jeepney-

[thanks to jay!!!! on flickr.com for the upload]

i actually enjoy riding it.. i'm the kind of person who likes to observe(in tagalog, usisera!haha!).. i always observe my fellow passengers for me to not get bored while travelling. i've witnessed many deeds being done in the four sides of the said transportation device. and indeed, they are very pinoy.! hehe

one very often scene in the jeepney is when one passenger pays for his fare and he sits far from the driver. he will ask(not command) a person to pass it on to another person, and to another, and to another(well, you get the point) until the money gets in the hands of the driver. he also use the very polite pinoy words which are 'po and opo'..

another scene is when one passenger has with him kids. (kids are not obliged to pay if they just sit on the lap of the older person he's with). another passenger would volunteer to let the other kid sit on his lap given the fact that he doesn't even know them.

when an old person enters, almost everyone will be concerned and would try to help him get in and sit down safe and sound.

if you really don't have money, other jeepney drivers let you ride provided that you'll hang at the back and hold tightly. or if you are a poor little kid, he'll let you get in if there are still available seats.

four guys hanging and sitting behind the jeepney. but i bet they paid. they don't look like they don't have money.hehe.. i think there's just no seats available.
[thanks to manfrommanila on Flick.com for the upload]

everybody rides jeepneys. we don't pick who's gonna be at our sides or what kind of jeepney we ride. we don't care how it smells whenever. everyone moves closer to each other so that other people can be able to ride too..plus, we don't take advantage of the driver's memory if we have paid or not. their slogan is "God knows Hudas not pay"--a typical filipino joke which really means God knows WHO DOES not pay."Hudas" is the tagalog name for JUDAS (as in Judas Escariot. a biblical character who betrayed his Master).it is a playful way of saying that you are like Judas if you don't pay your jeepney fare.

two persons making their selves fit on the single seat at the front.. there's the saying at the upper right portion.
[thanks to jobbaracuda on Flickr.com for the upload]

a lady making sure she pays her fare before the jeepney gets filled with passengers and she forgets to do so.
[thanks to angrylittleboy on Flickr.com for the upload]

that's the pinoy jeepney. and that's the pinoy spirit..=]