Sunday, March 22, 2009


-okay. i don't even know if there's such word. it's not with in the boundaries of my vocabulary.. my social life is a big zero these days.. sometimes i just don't know how to deal with 'earthlings' anymore -- i'm so attached to my self-made world that i almost lost connection to the 'real' world(there's more explanation why i'd put quotation marks on the word real--reality is almost relative for me nowadays)..

our lunch time scenario just this noon is another proof that i'm a loner--i'd rather be alone than try to be sociable. it was like i was watching a 3-D movie..only it wasn't even close to a bad movie--it's beyond bad. our dinning table was full of chatters. one started to tell a story;as usual, it was about her being the protagonist of all time,self-shiznitter and all those stuff.. and then the another one started a conversation even though the former haven't finished her self-appraisal yet. and then my wapanese cousin was suddenly being a wamerican spilling some 'trivias' with his as-a-matter-of-fact tone as usual. another one gave her opinions and related a story. i could see in another one's eyes lack of interest--just too exited to tell her own story.. one was also full of nonsense trivias of her own..and then almost everyone was talking at the same period of time--the dinning room of big mouths. i was watching them as it turned in slow motion and zoomed to their mouths. as if i was not there and i was only watching them on screen..i was almost near dizziness as i stood and drank a glass of water. i ran upstairs onto a bed and hugged my knees.

i think i was delusional at that time. maybe there's something wrong with me--not that i should go see a technician to tighten the bolts on my processing unit. or maybe it's just because they over talked and though i was used to it, i turned sick of it already.. or maybe i spent too much of my time being alone that's why i get shocked sometimes-or even bitter..i don't know.. it only makes me laugh now when i try remember it..

Sunday, March 1, 2009

age discrimination

i desperately need a prove that, i've been in all freaking job fairs i knew but i am just not that qualified. why? because i'm just darn 17.. i'v even passed an initial interview for a certain call center but i was dumped on the final because of my age..there's only 6 months left and i'm turning 18. i can not wait for 6 long months more. how could i survive for crap's sake. why do mr.who-ever-he-is had to make a friggin' labor code that prohibits us minors to earn money?can't they understand that not everyone has the capacity to be smart and be a scholar so that he/she could go to school even he/she doesn't have the parents , who are actually supposed to be in charge, to support em?? they're so proud of the freakin' code because they thought they've saved many minors because of it. well crap!! kill me if you haven't seen minors work at the street earning coins because they can't have descent jobs. they're all about talk and brag. anyway, i'll just be wasting my time if i'd go through this topic further.. bottom line is, i need a job. do you know a descent job that accepts a 17 yr old?please let me know. leave a comment. or text me.09207503821. thanks